And so depression sinks in....

The uberloved cousin has jetted back to Cali, my mom's husband is being a jerk, France lost the World Cup, ***** from the previous entry came hopping back, Wallace is being an asshole to everyone (and is prolly attached to some hotchick now as well), my Lit mark is lower than my History mark, and... my Malay oral exam is coming soon. next Monday.

haha. I make it sound like the oral exam is the most heart-wrenching thing of all. Is it? I don't know. I just hope I can scrape thru by talking half-a-bullshit about whatever topic they're gonna chuck at me.

My mom's husband is being a bigtime jerk. I'm practically paying for my own school expenses now, coz he says he's low on cash,yet refuses to get back like the SG$16,000 he loaned to people, prefering his own family to suffer. Who does he think we are? The Trumps? Hiltons? I ain't kidding. And you thought there was a limit to one's generosity.

Wallace and ***** are just being sideline affairs in the cosmic scheme of my life. Don't wish to go into the matter.
Coz seriously, they don't matter a hell lot. I mean, I don't see how they're gonna fit into my Parisian plan. I'll jet off, they'll be left behind and by that time I prolly won't care anymore. Thatz how it works. Wallace said he wants to go to France too, but....nvm.

Dian and Khane asked me why I want 'this Paris thing' to materialise so much. I'll tell you why. I want to get the hell out of this country, and start my LIVING my life in a place where nobody knows me; who I am, what I've been. Then for once, I won't be judged by my past.
And I'll be rid of all these people who make life a dystopia for me. Rid of whatever petty problems there are here in Singapore. Start life on your own, afresh. Sounds good doesn't it?

Of course, there would be people to miss and continue to love as well... Like my close friends, certain family members, and other dodos. But hey, a lil distance can't hurt. In fact, it's betterment. Distance makes you appreciate a person more, don't you think? Agree or perish.
Boring entry. I know. You can lift your head off the table and quit snoring already. Show's over.

Steve, it's been 4 days, but I'm still missing you.